I had my regular doctor's appointment last week and it was with the one doctor I haven't seen since this whole mess started, so the nursing staff wasn't familiar with our case. I guess at 30 weeks, it's normal for them to ask if you've thought about whether you're going to breast or bottle feed, which is exactly what the nurse did. It kind of caught me off guard and I took a moment to answer because I didn't want to say the first thing that came to my mind. I just simply told her that the baby was not expected to survive. That led to an akward pause and she made a note in my chart and said that she would make sure it didn't happen again. But it got me to thinking that perhaps there should be some kind of label that could be attached to the charts that everyone would recognize and be alert to lethal problems in a pregnancy so they didn't ask all the routine questions.

Anyway, lest you think this is going to be a morose post, I was talking to my mom later that afternoon, telling her how the appointment went and I said everything was the usual except I got hit with the "have you thought about how you're going to feed the baby" question. And my mom said "hmmm, haven't really thought about feeding the baby at all." That may seem like kind of strange thing for a mother to say when her daughter is in my position, but in reality, it was exactly, word for word, the first thing that came to my mind when the nurse asked me. I come by it honest. :)