Well, I did it

Actually, I did two things. The first thing I did was get my hopes up, the worst thing I think a woman dealing with infertility can do. After dealing with infertility for four years before finally getting pregnant with Alison, you'd think I'd know better. But some odd things happened during the "two week wait" this time, and I stupidly allowed myself to dare to hope and from there went right on in to thinking this really could be it. But AF showed herself right on time and now I have to assume that PMS will now include bouts of nausea, hot flashes, night sweats, being hungry all the time and extreme fatigue, rather than just the usual irritability, one day where I can't keep my eyes open in the afternoon and end up taking a nap on the couch and fanatical housekeeping that I normally have. Why I would even think that our circumstances would have changed enough to enable us to get pregnant the old fashioned way, I'll never know.

And this all brings me to the second thing I did. I called and made an appointment to talk to our infertility doctor about doing in vitro again. The appointment is next Monday. I'm a little bit worried that, because of everything we went through with Alison (the fact that she has SB and I/we had fetal surgery), he'll tell us we can't do in vitro again. While I can't say that I'm looking forward to going through the process (I think I'll speak to that in another entry) it would be very upsetting not to be able to at least try again. In actuality, I can't really see why we wouldn't be able to do it. Many of the FS4SB moms have gone on to have more children. One has even had twins since the surgery. At any rate, if we get the go ahead, at least this time it won't be quite so expensive. Our insurance has changed since the last time and we now have coverage for infertility. Granted it's only $2500 lifetime, which (probably) won't even cover a third of the cost, but it's better than nothing, right? So, the appointment's made and now we wait.